Prayers To Chris And Albie

Dear Heavenly Father,

We thank you for these two wonderful souls who you have made in your image! Please lord help them to find in You the Peace, to take on the challenges they are facing! I know God that you have given me the strength in my own life to walk again! When all else seemed so far away, you were always there for me! When the pain got to be to much I sought your face and I focused on it and all other thing would fall away. Every day I choose to walk with you! Helps me to know that all this is nothing compared to your love! I see you in the little things in life, and when I do I know it is you for it brings me love. The feeling of love, the love inside of me has been transformed to match your love Dear Lord! That love shines through me and heals my body as we walk and talk in this garden alone my faith grows. Dear Lord I pray my new friends here can find your Grace and your Face among all the powers that conflict us. Your power Lord is truly the greatest for you said you would do it for me! I am so week now that I have to trust you Lord and I do, I trust that you will send your healing power come upon this person who I pray for, heal her in your Mighty Way! In Jesus Name I Pray! Loving! JMM


Date: Tuesday, February 9, 2010, 10:03 PM


Joni hi, thank u for your support and prayers. Her name is Chris. Here's a pic of her if that helps. You are an angel.
All my love
Albie

Dear Albie,

I have down loaded Chris's Picture, let her know that I am praying for her as I do my self. She is my sister as are you. This life brings us many trials but with the help of God we can go through them with peace if we keep our eye on what it is He wants for us.

I am a mother of three and I found my self bed ridden and couldn't even guide the hands that were trying to care for me. The pain narcotics they had me on were the problem. I got off of them, most of them and I can function better now and am able to get out and move more, swimming is the best thing for people who have difficulty exercising as I do. I was stagnate from no physical activity for so long. Our bodies need to move regularly or every thing inside stops moving too!

I have a second cousin who has the same condition as Chris, she is so at peace with what ever happens because she knows the Lord. She knows that the Lord has a bigger plan for us all. She knows that the Lord will take care of her three young children if need be. It is so difficult to trust any one or any thing I know. I have had a difficult time of trusting doctors. I finally listened to the voice of God and was obedient to Him and trusted He could bring me back through the suffering I would have to go through to get off the Narcotics, that were suppose to be allowing me to live a better life. I was not living any life at all on them. I am not telling you to stop taking any medication but to listen to your body about them. I was so sick when I first started taking them that I couldn't even sit up. I should have listened to my body and said no. I am living a much more active life with out them. I have pain again but my mind is working better and that means the rest of me works better.

The mind as you know has to see what it wants in order to obtain it. God created us in His image and He gave us His power if we have faith and believe we can do things in His Name!
In His name we are healed and we are whole. His love for us by His walk to the cross showed us with His own example how when we are persecuted in this life that like Him we to can choose to give our pain to the The Father in Heaven and He gives us the strength to withstand the pain, to bare it with out inflicting our pain onto others, and to remain faithful to love others and our selves in spite of the illness or suffering.

My focus on Him and His Love is what got me through and is still getting me through. He does have a great plan in all He does and this is part of His plan, it is up to us to seek His truth. He never told us we would not have pain but He did say He would be there suffering right along with us. My tears are His tears! Our heart is the object of our suffering, to will our heart! We have free will and that will leads us to suffer but if we turn and give our lives to Him and follow His guidance we enter into His rest and the worry of all things become manageable. When I focus on what and how I can be of use to him my focus is changed as so is the pain. It falls farther away the more I focus on Jesus! He Is The Great Love Of My Life!

When there is no were else to turn we are almost always forced to turn to Him. I chose Him and He lead me to ORMUS. I was siting here at my computer and The words Medical Springs jumped out at me, If you read in my blog you will see how it happened but I checked it out and found ORMUS. I found Barry Carter and he lives right here in my own town. I went up to his door knocked and the door opened and I was given ORMUS at no cost to me, freely given! I have been on it for two months or so and have improved so much. Again this is in my blog attached to my yahoo page.

A thought about something I remember reading when I was searching for answerer, is that lack of water, dehydration is one things that causes illness. I saw that a husband saved his wife from dieing of cancer by giving her enemas to get water into her and she was healed! With God's mind we can be creative in our thinking, He gives us insight if we listen to His voice whispering to us. Now days I hear Him in every thing! He is the one who drew me to your message. When I saw your email I started to cry and wrote the prayer, I felt connected some how. I felt that could be me! Then I saw Chris's picture and she could be me. I have attached my picture to my email page. I know we are both older now but we could be sister! My love reflecting to you both, be at peace for it is in the peace you will find healing! God's Love to you both! JMM


Date: Wednesday, February 10, 2010, 1:11 PM

Joni, you are so kind for taking time with all you have written. I cannot thank you enough.
Yes, God is our bestest friend and I like to stay close to Him.
Joni it would be nice to put a face to you, but I can't seem to find your picture that you have attached. If you could attach it in a reply that would be greatly appreciated.
I could send you one of me so we can get acquainted. A picture tells a thousand words as they say. I sometimes get sad at those that are helpless and want to reach out and touch them with love so they can heal from their traumas.
Love is a powerful tool that when applied can fill you right up with happiness and joy. Your days would be bright and sunny. This is the way we all should live. Talk soon.
All my love
Albie

Dear Albie,

Sorry I guess it is the Yahoo messenger that has the picture not the email. I wish I had one of me from the 70s to show you! This one was taken just before I came off the medication I need a new one. I have lost 8O lbs, I was right at 300lb as the medication would always cause weight gain. Ever time they put me on something new I would gain 30 pounds.

My daughter is 26 now and she suffers from fibromyalgia too, she had orthopedic problems as a baby and her health has been poor with several things. She was just telling me today about one of her friends, husband who is dieing of cancer. I have seen my children go through more death in there lives then I can remember going through at their age. I did lose my older brother when he was 18 and both my parents dies early. But they have lost so many friends there own age. Life is difficult there is no doubt!

The food we eat is not healthy any more. You have to filter the water. I am trying to make healthy changes but there is so much to choose from. And I can not afford it! I am thankful for Barry and his friend Mary, they both have been a big help to me! I had to move out of my home to a disability apartment run by the government, I just want to go home now that I am doing better! In God's time I will.

Coming off the narcotics was so hard! I was in so much pain that all I could do is pray to God. Now since then things have really been opening up to me with God. I hear His voice in so many things, and feel Him with me! It is so difficult to explain to people, but the people around me know it is for real. I feel God moving in my life, leading me! I have returned to going to church again and every service I get more conformation from' Him' in the Word. It all seems to some how following my own life right now. If I were talking to you it would be easer to tell you all the things I've notice now, that I did not before!

They say there is something about becoming synchronized after a trauma of some sort. I don't know but it has been very interesting for me. I don't want it to ever stop. God is showing me what it is he wants me to do now. I have always had so much compassion for the people who are abused by the system. We are in the middle of a fight for the rights of the smokers who live here as they are being victimized for doing something they until July 2009 was appropriate, now they are expected to stop at 75 years old and older. Just because some one else says so. Who are they that they think they can tell us how to live our lives. I do not smoke cigarettes but I also do not what some one telling what I can do in my own home. It is these kinds of stresses that cause the cancers in life, I feel. Stress!

I started writing a piece today as I set praying for Chris. I know I have my own pain but I could feel her's too. Then out poured all this stuff. I am not sure how Chris's life has been, but I have been a single mother for over 35 years, or most of it. My youngest is now 21and its difficult to see them struggle so much to try to get a head. I was just writing about this in my Blog. If you want, I will send you a link to it. I am just now getting brave enough to let others read it.

I have been on a health quest for the past year now and have accomplished all I set out to. Not very many people come back off those pain medication after they get you on them. I have a lot of people looking at me with amazement as to what I have accomplished, after, I gave it to God. I have always walked with the Lord but I have never heard His voice so clearly as I do now.

So many things started to change when I found ORMUS, like my reading and writing! I am writing like never before. I was just telling my daughter today that I am speed reading, I never could do that ever in my life. All sense taking the ORMUS. If you read my blog I talk about my finding ORMUS. The guy in one of Barry's stories was named Jim, and that jumped out at me, just like your email, I had the feeling it was my Jim from years ago. So I emailed Barry with this notion and he replied that it was in deed my Jim. God is leading, I am finally at a point were I can slow down enough to hear and see Him trying to tell me things.

He will use any thing and every thing to get your attention. I laugh out loud at the things that jump out at me these days. Like prim number, 11 22 33 44 and so forth. Day after day I would just happen to look at the clock and it would be 11:11 or 1:11 am, and pm. I would wake up at 1:11am and need to write! After awhile I Googled 11:11 and it blew my mind. I don't know! But it got my attention. After awhile the numbers changed to 22:22 and in one 12hr period one day, my eyes, happened, to look at one of three different clock to see 11:11, 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, and by then I was talking out loud, saying, OK lets get it over with, but when I was sitting here and with out thinking about it my eyes looked at the clock it read 4:44 and I about jumped out of my chair. I know it sounds crazy but, I am trusting how it all makes me feel and I know I am not alone. Others feel it too! He is calling our names every one of us, He wants us to seek Him, it is the sick that seek him the most. Our pain is indeed what drives us home!

To let go of this life is a difficult thing to do. To live this life is an even more difficult thing! Our pain helps us know this is all only for a time and how nice it will be to get out of these vehicles and be completely free! I use to say that years ago,"I wish I could just get out of this body" I guess I still do feel that way. But I can take the pain better now that I know there is some one there with me going through it! Jesus has always been there with me, teaching me even when I did not recognize Him. I Thank The Good Lord that I heard his voice that day when I was in so much pain and such deep despair! I some how senses that He was right there just one step behind me on my right. I would even turn to look, as it would come over me in such a way that I really felt some one there and tuned to look seeing no one, I would know that it was God, Jesus my hero!

One time the therapist I was seeing during my divorce was doing guided imagery on me, he had me close my eyes and see my self walking down a flight of stairs, I could see it in my mind but there again was that someone right beside me protecting me, they felt masculine, and was walking down the stairs to the right of me, just one step behind me. The therapist was a Christian Counselor and when I said that, he said right away, " we will say that is Jesus," I said, I know that is who it is! It still freaked the guy out, my saying that, I could see it on his face.

It is difficult to tell my story to others, no one can see it the same way. Yet we all go through life doing the same things. But no one can feel what we feel but us! No one can tell us our pain is lesser or greater then the other! Belief in one another is needed to heal. Trust, understanding, touch, friendships that nurture the soul. Protection is a big one, to feel safe! It is easer to talk to someone who is a stranger because there is no risk. So from the comfort of my own home from here I am safe. To get the story out is the intent. To get it out of me, so I can heal! It only take one other willing soul who will listen and then I can let it go! I am writing for my health but I know God is using it for His Grace! My intent is to show His face when someone looks at me and to hear His voice when they read my words!

I had a girl do a remote viewing on me and it was really amazing, where it all lead me was amazing. It is really like a treasure hunt to seek Him. I write poetry mostly but now my voice is growing and I can't not write. He has me going night and day some times right now. I know that it is healing to do so and as I let come what may, I too am amazed at it's content. I do automatic writing, I don't set out to write any thing it just come out like this!

I was an alcohol and drug counselor for two and a half years using my own experiences as an Adult Child of an Alcoholic as my only education, my own life as the teacher. My own life is my tool, taking the learned lessons and tuning them into tools to help others, It great really! I found God used me to say things, it would be coming out of my mouth and I did not know how I knew that and it would affect me as much as the client. I was never good at hiding my feelings so I would have to admit it some times because it would make me cry I was so overwhelmed by it! They deemed me the crying counselor. I really was pretty good at it, I just couldn't take the mind games from other staff! Abuse of Power! That seems to be the issue around here as well with the new management take over!

I am trusting God with all things now. It makes life a lot less stressful. I still worry about things but not like I use to. Thinking I had to do it all! Be the mother and the father, the bread winner, preacher, teacher, no one can!

They diagnosed me years ago with PTSD I ended up with fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue you name it. I was wiped out and saw the end coming. I then had a dream! A dream where I was in a cave like place I had to crawl in, but it was made of animal skins draped over bent poles like the Indians use to us to keep their food in. I never even knew that, until I told my story to some who knew and told me that was a real thing. I knew that it was food on the shelves made of sticks, but the only thing I recognized was, chocolate! I knew I had to get out of there and then I woke up. I was on so much narcotics just trying to stay ahead of withdrawal that I would stop breathing at night. I would feel like I exploded and then wake up! I think it was God waking me up! I had to go on oxygen to sleep at night. That is how my mom died she just stopped breathing one night. It was a real wake up call for me. I am going to be 53 in two days and my mom was 56 when she died.

God can give us the strength to fight our battles, we can just sit back and let Him fight them for us. That is what is helping me the most, letting go and letting God! All though when it comes to some one hurting some else I am up for a fight, even if I have to do it from right here at my computer.

Albie, it is really good talking to you! I know we all need to know we are loved and thought about in kind ways. It really helps me, the nice things you say, and it helps me to know my experiences can be of value, if I can help even one other person, get through this life feeling loved no mater what my life is worth it! We help each other, we need each other. That is what is lost in today world, helping hands! At least in my life that is what was missing. The whole time I was locked away in my room with every thing falling down around me no one came, only very dear friends would come see me once in a great while, this went on for 7 years. I was utterly alone with God. I give Him the credit for bringing me back to life! I want to live I for Him now! I already see positive changes in my children's thinking just by observing my own walk become real with Him!

I really got lucky raising my kids they are wonderful loving people who would give you the shirt off there back! They are defenders of what is good and just, and what is of Love! I am truly blessed! I also have two beautiful Grand children whom I cherish dearly! They live two and half hour from me, I wish I could be closer but I don't think I can take the stress of city life. I did, for three weeks over the holidays and it was rough on me, but I did it. That was my first real outing in years. It was great to be out among friends and family again. It seems like the more I get out and live life and the more I write, the better I feel!

Thank you for letting me express myself and my faith with you both! I pray that we all enter into his rest and that His will be our will in all things great or small good or bad because he can turn all thing that seem bad into some thing more wonderful then we could ever dream of! I would like to send you both some songs that were sent to me in my time of need by a friend who after ten years, just out of the blew contacted me, just when I needed some one the most. I still play these songs all day long as it lifts my spirit and helps keep me focused on Him. Let me know if that is OK and I will try and get this old computer to get them to you! Love and Light to you both my dear, dear friends. Joni